Sigh… Wow the new year has taken off fast. I finally have a few minutes to sit down and think about what is it that I want to accomplish in this coming year. The last few months have brought with them some new challenges that have forced me to think about and deal with things that I have never dealt with before. 

One of the big things that I noticed through these times of growth is the fact that often times when it comes to the way we react to situations – the issue is not the fact that we lack resources to reach a biblical conclusions, but rather, that we are unwilling to use all the resources and acknowledge that we have. 

In other words, the problem is often times in our unwillingness to step out of our own view, out of our opinions, and to look at the situation from an objective, biblical perspective. Very often my own desires or opinions about a certain aspect of life blind me to seeing that area from a biblical side. 

This is especially true in good christian relationships where the person seeks to share with you something that is on their mind, something that might contradict how YOU see the situation. I’ve noticed that by human nature, we generally don’t like to hear viewpoints that are different than ours – whatever the topic may be.

In the back of our mind we might know that whatever we are doing is not totally, entirely correct, but we continue in it because we are scared to let go of our views. We fear the vulnerability of stepping out of our perspective and seeing the situation from a different point of view, and the possibility that the person speaking to us has a more biblical perspective that we do. We fear to admit that we could be wrong. 

However there is still that thought in the back of our minds, “Maybe he/she is right?” “Is this really the best thing to do?”. The critical difference is WHAT we do in reaction to these thoughts. Do we dismiss then, pretending that we didn’t hear? Or do we suddenly stop what we are doing, and honestly open our hearts up, and reexamine our ways?

The Bible says that God has given us the conscience as a warning system of our inner life. It is the alarm that sounds when we are not acting entirely our of honest conviction. It is one of the key tools to lead us to bigger and bigger steps of growth and change in him. It is the only thing left inside the sinner’s heart that functions as a tool to bring him to an understanding of his need in God. 

My goal for this year is to be honest in all areas of life, to that voice in the back of my mind. I have recently discovered the huge blessing of acting out of an honest conviction of what I know to be true, and I want to continue to learn to walk like that in all areas of life. 

The apostle Paul wrote in 2 Corinthians 1:12 – 
“For our boast is this: the testimony of our conscience that we behaved in the world with simplicity and godly sincerity, not by earthly wisdom but by the grace of God, and supremely so toward you.”

Although it is often times scary to be totally honest with myself and admit that I could be wrong, I see it as one of the most central aspects of a solid life rooted in the gospel. It is what gave the apostle Paul the ability to stand firm in extreme difficulty, and it is something that continues to hold God’s people up today. 

I want to learn to be open, to be honest, to act out of conviction and integrity rather than out of a desire to just manipulate circumstances to get my way. I want to learn to always see my need to get out of MY and and into God’s.