Sometime last year I ran into this quote from Fyodor Dostoevsky. Its honesty and profundity stuck with me and reminds me of a daily reality that we all face.
“I believe like a child that suffering will be healed and made up for, that all the humiliating absurdity of human contradictions will vanish like a pitiful mirage, like the despicable fabrication of the impotent and infinitely small Euclidean mind of man, that in the world’s finale, at the moment of eternal harmony, something so precious will come to pass that it will suffice for all hearts, for the comforting of all resentments, for the atonement of all the crimes of humanity, of all the blood that they’ve shed; that it will make is not only possible to forgive but to justify all that has happened.” 

I think that these words naturally resonate with every person that may read them. It seems to be an inseparable aspect of the human soul to desire and believe in some sort of ‘heaven’. We all long for something more, something beyond the joys and sorrows of this world, something that will make it all infinitely worth the struggle.

Being engaged to the most amazing girl in the world, I have once again been reminded of this truth and the implications that it has for the christian life. Life as an engaged person is a life in the limbo of waiting for something more. It is a daily life of understanding how incomplete you are without this person with whom your soul is at home. It is a desire that continually reminds you of your need to be doing all of life together with this dear and loving companion. Without her, my mind and heart are incomplete.

Don’t get me wrong – I am not suffering. Quite to the contrary, I am deeply enjoying every single new day that comes more than ever before. But despite the fact that every day is so good, I am living under the pressing awareness of the fact that there is SO much more that I will soon get to know.

It is no coincidence that the Bible makes a very strong connection between marriage and the relationship of Christ to his people. Christians are depicted as the bride, and Christ the groom. Though we get to live an amazing life of growing in a deeper relationship with him here in this life, it is all just a shadow of the things to come. Just like the joy of being engaged doesn’t compare the the greatness of the things that follow, the christian life is to constantly be pushed by the pressing awareness of the infinite supremacy of Christ’s coming kingdom.

If you have seen the deep joyful revolution that the Gospel can bring about in your life, how much more incredible will it be to truly know Christ in perfection forever? None of the joys of this life can compare to the beauty of that day.

As I thought about this, I caught myself on seeing how easily I forget it, how easily I become attached to the fading joys of this world, and how easily I let the most powerful realities that drive me take a back seat. To be satisfied with this world and forget all that is to come is like being satisfied with engagement and forgetting the coming of the wedding day.